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Nov 08

Groundhog Day

Groundhog Standing by Marumari

Groundhog Standing by Marumari

I wake, and he stirs beside me, presses me deeper into the bed, wraps his hands around my ankles, my wrists, my neck. I push aside and make myself get up. I put one sluggish foot in front of another and make it as far as the bathroom. One triumph today.

I take my pills, then lie down again, just to catch my breath. One defeat.

I try again, put on my robe and slippers, and this time I reach the couch. Two triumphs. The computer is on, and I check my e-mail, check my Facebook, watch a video that makes me feel good, look at GIFs of stupid people. Maybe I’ll write, I tell myself. Maybe I will.

The computer is a vortex, I fall into it willingly, and an hour passes, and then another, and then another.

I rest, I wake, I eat, I drink. I check my e-mail, check my Facebook, watch a video that makes me feel good, look at GIFs of stupid people. Maybe I’ll write, I tell myself. Maybe I will.

Night time falls, and I shut off the computer. I brush my teeth, take my pills, and climb into bed. He lets go then, only then. I hear him breathing softly beside me, even as I struggle to fall asleep. The night passes fitfully.

I wake, and he stirs beside me, presses me deeper into the bed, wraps his hands around my ankles, my wrists, my neck. I push aside and make myself get up. I put one sluggish foot in front of another and make it as far as the bathroom. One triumph today.

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Today’s prompt comes simply from having a bad day with chronic illness.

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  1. laurabesley

    Really liked this. Hope you feel better soon!

    1. Shelli Proffitt Howells

      Thank you, Laura, I appreciate that!

  2. Helen A. Howell

    Oh this really stresses how hard each day is. Feel better very soon!

    1. Shelli Proffitt Howells

      Thank you so much, Helen! Thankfully, some days are better than others, and really bad days are rare. 🙂

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