Jun 08

WIP Wednesday: Cocoon

Inspired by my friend, Mercedes M. Yardley’s post, I decided to do my first ever WIP Wednesday. For those of you wondering if WIP stands for Rest In Peace for those with a lisp, the answer is no. It means “Work In Progress.”

Now, that could describe a lot of things going on in my life right now. I’m learning how to live my truth as a Type 3 in the Dressing Your Truth (DYT) program. I’m hiking to improve my health, and it’s going super fantastically well. I’m on week 10 in The Artist’s Way program. And I’m doing a lot of emotional healing through The Presence Process by Michael Brown (which I’ll review in a future post). However, the WIP I’m going to tell you about today is my current writing project.

Cocoon by Shelli Proffitt Howells

Cocoon by Shelli Proffitt Howells

Cocoon: My journey of healing sexual abuse through the gift of chronic illness

“There are two kinds of pedophiles. I know, because I was molested by both.

“I used to believe I was broken and nothing could fix me. I believed that my experiences had changed me in irrevocable ways. I would always hurt. I would always be vulnerable to triggers. I would always bring my molesters to bed with me. I would always live in a dissociative state. I would never be able to really love life, because after all these years, death was still the more appealing choice. I still wanted to go home.

“Then, in the fall of 2006, I became sick with a puzzling illness. It stripped me of my life and my identity, leaving me isolated in my cocoon. My chronic illness broke me down in ways that allowed me to rebuild my life. It opened me to healing resources that I don’t believe I would have found any other way.

“Now, you don’t have to become sick to be able to heal from sexual abuse. Thankfully, we have the opportunity in life to learn from others’ experiences. It is my hope that by sharing my story, you will be able to find what you need to heal yourself, too.”

I started this project as a secret. It was going to be just for me. How else could I have written the words that spilled onto the page? However, the more I’ve written, the more I realized that I’m tired of keeping secrets. If I truly want to heal, I need to share my story.

This post is the first step to sharing my secrets. It’s pretty scary. It makes me feel vulnerable. But it makes me feel powerful, too. I want to feel powerful.

So, tell me, are you a work in project? What are you working on today?

Share your thoughts.

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